i'm feeling so much tonite.
really so much.
in a way, its good that im feeling all these.
it comes to show how much i love him, how much i need him and want him in my life.

we talked abt those times before we were tgt.
it's really amazing how we really ended being tgt.
cuz its sth we nv really thot will happen.

i asked him abt his last ex.
it's joys. 2 and a half yrs long r/s.
he ended it.
cuz of her quick temper.
more imptly, cuz whenever she's irritated by other things or sth, she vents it on him.
but she's a nice girl.
that's wat he told me.

so yeah. in a way feeling much better after knowing it.
but again, i dunno if its still gg to affect me.
afterall, they had such a long r/s.

but i really cant deny that i love him a lot.
so so so much.
i cant afford to lose him.
and i never want to.
i never wish that he will break up w me like wat he did to joys.
i wan and hope that we can hold on for lifetime.
and im willing to chng and do anything just to keep this gg.

i wish no matter what happens, or busy both of us get over the months or years,
i hope this love stays strong and faithful. of cuz healthy and great.

i wish to walk the aisles with him.
i love him.
yes, i really do.

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